Late night, while the whole neighborhood is sleeping, a beam of the light was triggerd and passed through the window, lighting up the area where nocturnal animals are curious by [[nature->Nature]] but hide and flee by [[nurture->Nurture]].
What it means to nurture?
nurture. verb. To help someone to grow, develop, or succeed. : to take care of someone by providing [[food, protection, a place to live->Intro]].What it means to nature?
a: an inner force such as [[instinct, appetite, desire->Intro]] or the sum of such forces in an individual.James Gelding, a fifty year old man, sits infront of his desk at his home studio. It is the best time of the night, James Gelding would [[firmly say->Nuture story]].
Since James stepped in to his adulthood, he has been only being himself for 2.5 years in total but playing different roles to support his family and be alive for more then thirty some years. Those 2 hours of reflection in his daily routine remains the last dignity of himself as a human being.
He wouldn't have any complains. That was his desicion. A desicion for the love and the responsibily made of the civial stardard in which he has been sacrifisied and rewarded all the time. But right now, it's about time to step on the next phase of [[the plan->The Plan]].
Do I love her?
Yes. I feel so happy to stay with her and keeping her smile will always made my day.
Do I want to marry her?
Yes. Marry her would be the best decision I will make for my entire life. If she would like to give birth kids for me, it would be the most affectionate affirmation to me.
What about your ambition?
I can compromise but never forgive the society that made by full of civial standards. I believe individualism and will keep figuring the way out.
When will you achieve your utopia?
At the time I have better skills and fullfilled the duties of other roles. Maybe [[in age of fifty->Chat]].A text message breaks the silence of the room. “You still up?” from Dale Hardman, a successful real-estate entrepreneur of the Riverland and the closest frind of James since they were in the junior high. “Yes.” James responded. Face Time is ringing and James accepted.
“You filthy animal don’t sleep at night, do you? I saw your message earlier today, funeral? What happened? Whose funeral? ” Dale is talking while laying on the bed.
“It's for me.” Responded briefly.
Dale laughed at his phone.
“This is funny, I have never being invited to a funeral by the same person who will be placed in the coffin”.
“I’m serious.”
Dale giggled but then the laughter is getting louder.
James is waiting without showing any emotion. Dale noticed and became serious.
“What happened to you, my friend? Does your wife know your funeral?”
“Probably, she won’t be surprised though. I would ask when is the funeral if I were you?”
“When is the funeral?”
“Tomorrow at 10 am.”
“You gotta be kidding me. Having some sleep James! You are talking non-sense now.” Dale got pissed. “Host a funeral on the same date with your birthday? Are you doing some fucking ridiculous religious ritual or something?”
“You will see Dale, are you curious about the location?”
Dale had a couple of deep breath and asked “Where is the place?”
“Queensland Park”
“What’s the dress code?” Dale is teasing.
James laughed, “As long as my kids won’t see a bottom naked uncle Dale, whatever for you is fine.”
“I’m not the only person, right? Who else will attend your funeral?”
“People who are close to me and most of them you are familiar with.”
“I see. Do you want me to bring my family with me?”
“No, I love Linda and your kids, but I prefer to share those words to you.”
“Alright, now pray for me to have a good sleep, so I won’t miss it” Dale asked
“You know me, I’m a non-believer.”
“Then wish me”
“Wish you have a good sleep”
“Louder.”
“Fuck off.”
“Haha Verified, well, see you tomorrow then.”
[[Tomorrow->tomorrow]]
Birds' tweeting arlarms James from revising his condolence. He stays up the whole night and try to capture every minute from his last day. The day finally comes. Surprisingly, he is not as excited as he would expect, instead, he was sad and feels enomours guit. But he knows, he won't let the emotion drag him back to normal.
Later, his wife comes downstairs and starts to make breakfast.
"Bread or Cheerios?" her asked.
"Bread is fine."
Dead silence in the room. Pouring milk sounds like a horn.
Breakfast is on the table. They are going to have their last breakfast as a couple.
"So what are you going to do later today?" his wife asked, "Never mind, why do I think you would tell me anyway. I will meet you at park then." wife brought her plate to the kitchen and go back to her bedroom.
James finish his breakfast and wash hisself up. He choose the beige suits with a brown tie which he used to wear for his wedding.
Pring out the condolence and heading to [[the park.->park]]
Queensland Park is a community park in the town. The service members are already there for setting up the funeral. The lead reaches out to James.
"Good morning Mr.Gelding, the landscaping for your funeral is all set. We are now testing audio and camera sort of things. We haven't had any issues so far and that's the good sign for starting on time."
"Thanks Joe, you are all doing amazing job". James gently answered.
A few more people come the funeral. James is facing at the parking lot all the time as he arrived. His daughter, wearing a light pink dress, waves her hands far away from James. James waves back with a light smile. It is a better encounter than he was expected and he feels more relieved.
Dale is wearing a T-shirt and a shorts. Sunglasses is wearling like a hairband. James can tell, this is the most relaxable funeral in Dale's life.
Lead approaches to James again and said "Mr. Gelding, [[time to start the funeral.->Speech]]"
Thank all of you for attending my funeral. I'm very glad to see the colorful front row, which makes me feel really warm.
I know this probably the most rediculous funeral you have ever attended and you probably are very confused about what is the point of hosting a funeral for oneself. Let me give you a straight answer, the point is for being myself, for taking the full control of the rest of life without any concerns or any negociations. Without any disrespect, I love all of you, especially my wife but I want to spend most my time to chase my dream. If I did not do it, I would regret even when I am in grave.
I'm going to give up all of my possessions to my wife and freeze all the relationship with you guys. Please forgive my selfishness, this is the honest solution for me to [[move forward->After Cival Life]].
Tiredness. If you asked James what is the feeling after the funeral.
James steps into his conversion van and falls asleep right away. The next awake would be the first day of his [[new life. ->new life]]
You are on your own now. What's your descision?
[[Sticking on your plan.->Answer]]
[[Staying where you at.->Answer]]No judgement here. It's your choice.
James is organizing his stuffs while the[[Phone rings...->phone call]]It's from your daughter.
[[Pick up...->forward]]
[[Hang up...->forward]]Good luck on the new life.
Story ends.